TGIF. I have been losing it this week. If I de-stressed from my vacation you sure wouldn't know it now. Work was hell. Ok, maybe not hell, but one of those weeks where every thing that could go wrong did. We had 2 days of no computer service - no Internet, no access to files, no database access, etc.. 90% of my work is related to the computer - even though I'm a librarian my job entails being a database manager. Can't manage a database when it doesn't work for 2 days. By today I was so irritated that when one of my co-workers decided that a personal phone call was more important than doing their job - I blew. I did something that I consider a big no-no. I yelled at them and if that wasn't bad enough, I did it in front of another employee. Not good. It may be hard to believe but I'm not a yeller but I was extremely angry (it's been building up for a long time with this person) and I don't even think that you should discuss personnel issues in front of other employees regardless if there is yelling involved. My stress level is through the roof which might explain why I came home and ate 4 - count them - 4 trail bars. It's a good thing I signed up for 2 classes at the Y today - I'm going to need something to burn off the crap I've been eating. I really need to just quit telling myself I can control myself when I have stuff like that in the house. In fact, that's been another theme this week - telling myself I have control when the reality is I don't have control over anything. I have control issues but I don't think I'm a control freak or at least not a psychopathic one. I only need to feel like I have control over one little thing and I'm okay. If I feel like I don't have control over at least one thing - I'm a freaked out little puppy. And that's where we are this week. I'm home and I'm going to relax now.
Hope you all have a good holiday weekend!
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